My cowboy again.

It's been quite awhile , tho u still come around...
And I still pick myself up each time off the ground...
I know now that we're merely just friends.. but hey that's ok... ill take that in the end.
I also know that we can still fuck...
Im just not real confident , ain't that some luck.....
So I hold myself back until the day comes that when ..
I feel like myself , and im confident again.
Cuz I gave up on love so long ago...
But I really do love u , I hope that u know.  
I just realized that it won't ever be...
Happy ever after, between u and me.
But u still came around and that means alot...
And the sex that we have will not be forgot!
Amd yes we will do it again and again...
But for now I'm just thankful to know your my friend.
Without all the drugs and without all the sex.... who knows in this life time what happens next ?
But I will never love anyone else I am sure...
Cuz w love comes a pain that I can no longer endure.
I guess I've grown bitter and I don't even try... and life is so short and times flying by ....
And tho everything is falling apart... and I've shut off all access to get in my heart.
There's a place down in there that is only for you....
And my love is real, and authentic and true.
So just hang on cowboy ...we will ride again .
And it is what it is... and will be til the end!