THE FAST APPROACHING BORDERS OF THIN ICE INSANITIES    (5-31-1992; in a Sonora Texas roadside Motel)

my only hope here
presently
is to keep on moving
ever further away
from these fragile
increasingly eroding
threadbare
decaying borders
of such fast approaching
proximal
thin ice insanities
where i have
for so very long now
only been struggling
courageously fighting
in intermittent
recurrent cycles
of both successes
and futility alike
to simply
yet desperately
at times
just survive
and stay alive
more than i have
been able to
more fully live
my life
my one true life
at all
so i may one day
someday
somehow
someway
hopefully
transcendently relocate
more securely
ever nearer
more closely to
the newly reopened
fully enlightened
radiant heart
of true  ever lasting
spiritually awakened
innermost
wisdom  peace
kindness  compassion
divine light
and
love