No H8

Why can't i hate you
Hating myself is so easy
How can i blame you
If I could I would leave me

After eighteen years
You went and stepped out
But I was never there
I spent all my time with doubt

The light in your eyes
I remember to this day
My darkness consumed you
And made it go away

It was fight or flight time
You had to make a choice
Lose yourself entirely
Or listen to that little voice

That was begging you to run
Before you became like me
A prisoner of love
Shackled to my misery

There was more on the line
It wasnt only you
Two beautiful little girls
They deserved better too

The air in the house
Was so heavy and oppressive
As I dwelled on the negative
So much I was obsessive

Your heart became vulnerable
To anyone with love to give
Its not right but i understand
And have chosen to forgive

So, no, I cant hate you
For the choice that you made
Instead I will be grateful
For the 18 years you stayed