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7x7
I muttered prayers
to open stars
on meth strained week-with-no-sleep
evenings trying to get some bearing
on what I wanted
stained clothes and icy pavements
melted asphalt in the summer
the stench of it cloying and thick
my own body caked in a miasma
of sweat and unclean
I opened my wrists to scrawl semantics
write to tear the demons of thought from my psyche try to make sense of what I am
where I came from
all the scars
fractures and moments
are a kaleidoscope of broken
that were followed by addictions
finally allowed black tar to billow up from hollow collar bones
to spew on to a page
found the desire
to scratch hieroglyphs and stick figures
in uncouth English while colouring outside the lines
found love
then broke my own heart
because I was always unsustainable at best
chaos and discombobulation
never knew when enough was enough
always been like that
I stare at shiny crystalline structures
crushed between my
gnarled fingers
glass statues that I turned to sand
I don’t know where to start
sorry isn’t nearly enough
probably never will be
and it’s all I’ve got
to open stars
on meth strained week-with-no-sleep
evenings trying to get some bearing
on what I wanted
stained clothes and icy pavements
melted asphalt in the summer
the stench of it cloying and thick
my own body caked in a miasma
of sweat and unclean
I opened my wrists to scrawl semantics
write to tear the demons of thought from my psyche try to make sense of what I am
where I came from
all the scars
fractures and moments
are a kaleidoscope of broken
that were followed by addictions
finally allowed black tar to billow up from hollow collar bones
to spew on to a page
found the desire
to scratch hieroglyphs and stick figures
in uncouth English while colouring outside the lines
found love
then broke my own heart
because I was always unsustainable at best
chaos and discombobulation
never knew when enough was enough
always been like that
I stare at shiny crystalline structures
crushed between my
gnarled fingers
glass statues that I turned to sand
I don’t know where to start
sorry isn’t nearly enough
probably never will be
and it’s all I’ve got
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