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Asphalt lamentations
I was on my way
to meet friends for
pretension and bad champagne
but the song you sang,
the one that
made made me all melty
on our first day
as an official couple,
came on the radio
while I flipped channels
and I was back there,
back then,
when you were
(inhale)
when you were
proud to be my man
so I pulled into a
Walgreens parking lot and
ugly cried so hard
so long,
and so dramatically,
someone from the pharmacy
actually came out to see if I
needed medical attention
I lied and said my cat died
and I was on my period,
blew my nose
on some Chick-Fil-A
napkins I had crumpled
in the glove box,
and smiled until she went away.
I was still at risk for full-blown shit-losing,
so I went inside,
bought a Diet Coke
and sat in my car for a
long
long time
phone silenced,
I leaned my head back
against the seat
as traffic ignored me,
and
I couldn’t think
of a single reason
to turn the ignition key,
to move forward,
to leave this stupid parking lot,
and this stupid bullshit
phase of grief
I couldn’t think
of anything
but you.
to meet friends for
pretension and bad champagne
but the song you sang,
the one that
made made me all melty
on our first day
as an official couple,
came on the radio
while I flipped channels
and I was back there,
back then,
when you were
(inhale)
when you were
proud to be my man
so I pulled into a
Walgreens parking lot and
ugly cried so hard
so long,
and so dramatically,
someone from the pharmacy
actually came out to see if I
needed medical attention
I lied and said my cat died
and I was on my period,
blew my nose
on some Chick-Fil-A
napkins I had crumpled
in the glove box,
and smiled until she went away.
I was still at risk for full-blown shit-losing,
so I went inside,
bought a Diet Coke
and sat in my car for a
long
long time
phone silenced,
I leaned my head back
against the seat
as traffic ignored me,
and
I couldn’t think
of a single reason
to turn the ignition key,
to move forward,
to leave this stupid parking lot,
and this stupid bullshit
phase of grief
I couldn’t think
of anything
but you.
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Re. Asphalt lamentations
20th Jan 2024 6:17am
Breaking down the weight into mass at rest into a parking space allows for certainty in memory, a universal, at this time, with this feeling, in this way.
And that puts us all in that back seat. Where it all began.
And that puts us all in that back seat. Where it all began.
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Re: Re. Asphalt lamentations
21st Jan 2024 00:22am
Re. Asphalt lamentations
20th Jan 2024 2:24pm
For as heart wrenching as it was your grief did more for you than the pretension and bad champagne ever would.
Not to get all preachy, but girl, giving yourself space is the best thing you can do for yourself.
Sending you nothing but love.
Not to get all preachy, but girl, giving yourself space is the best thing you can do for yourself.
Sending you nothing but love.
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Re: Re. Asphalt lamentations
Breathing through it.
Pretty much wish he'd come back, or fucking call, or fucking... send a smoke signal.
But I know he won't.
So.
Yeah.
(watery smile)
I'll be ok.
It's just grief. I'm really good at it.
Pretty much wish he'd come back, or fucking call, or fucking... send a smoke signal.
But I know he won't.
So.
Yeah.
(watery smile)
I'll be ok.
It's just grief. I'm really good at it.
Re: Re. Asphalt lamentations
21st Jan 2024 00:25am
Re. Asphalt lamentations
21st Jan 2024 2:33am
Time to get a rescue dog.
The only species of life that is forever loyal...
Hug
The only species of life that is forever loyal...
Hug
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Re: Re. Asphalt lamentations
21st Jan 2024 3:08am
Thanks man. I'm leaning in to that hug. I appreciate you. Dogs shit on the floor.... maybe that's better. Men shit on me, so I guess that's an upgrade.
Still need that hug. Big.
Still need that hug. Big.
Re: Re. Asphalt lamentations
21st Jan 2024 12:51pm
Re. Asphalt lamentations
21st Jan 2024 3:15am
good evening Betty stay away from pretentious it will never serve someone as soulful as you I know what you mean about songs and loving a person so hard you crumble at the sound of music that makes you smell, touch taste that person again stay away from the cold rooms you don't belong there hugs you tightly 💕
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Re: Re. Asphalt lamentations
21st Jan 2024 3:22am
Thank you, sweet lady.
I spent tonight listening to shit that made me cry.
I'm sort of holding a wake for my heart this weekend. I'll be OK soon. I will. Thank you for being there while I'm not
I spent tonight listening to shit that made me cry.
I'm sort of holding a wake for my heart this weekend. I'll be OK soon. I will. Thank you for being there while I'm not
Re. Asphalt lamentations
Anonymous
21st Jan 2024 4:03pm
Almost a sense of someone yanking the plug suddenly & everything bubbled up & poured out. Draining but not really cleansing. The intensity is too much for that yet. Agonizingly expressed
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Re: Re. Asphalt lamentations
21st Jan 2024 9:45pm
Re. Asphalt lamentations
22nd Jan 2024 5:55pm
I'm struck by the fact that you were on your way to something mediocre & a little HUGE thing completely brought you to the heart of your pain. Like knees shaking, incoherent, not enough oxygen level pain. Sending you whatever energy you need after this soul shredding moment
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Re: Re. Asphalt lamentations
22nd Jan 2024 9:36pm
That's how grief be.
Totally fine. Glad it's over. And then.... POW! Smacked right in the fucking face by the mundane.
When someone is such a big part of your life it take a hot minute to cycle through everything you associate with them.
Thank you, my friend. I feel your good vibes.
Totally fine. Glad it's over. And then.... POW! Smacked right in the fucking face by the mundane.
When someone is such a big part of your life it take a hot minute to cycle through everything you associate with them.
Thank you, my friend. I feel your good vibes.
Re. Asphalt lamentations
22nd Jan 2024 6:12pm
Poetry is a saviour of an outlet to share such deep truth with others so that, even though you may feel alone, they don't.
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Re: Re. Asphalt lamentations
22nd Jan 2024 9:37pm
That made me almost regress to the weeping weekend... thank you. Being alone with my own thoughts and feelings is not productive right now, and to know you're there ... it matters.
Thank you
Re. Asphalt lamentations
7th Feb 2024 8:48pm
I can only feel your grief because you write it so exceptionally bloody brilliantly.
Sending you a big wrap around squishy hug Betty. 😘
Sending you a big wrap around squishy hug Betty. 😘
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Re: Re. Asphalt lamentations
13th Feb 2024 10:46pm