The Problems Of Being A Shadow

powerful feelings collide inside
interstellar emotions
I'm star gazing looking at you

I sigh and tell myself to look elsewhere
you hurt me with cult fiction
secret fascination with something I'm not

bare with nothing but the honesty of the soul
I show myself
you are captivated by my radiant being
who is beautiful but deceptive

I am a pale shadow in the dark singing to you
your magnetism draws me in with stoic, hard looks
meaningful moments that speak to me
like when you said you love me
I wonder could you see me
in the darkness dancing
speaking our lusts into being

watching you longingly
I cultivate the feelings that need nurturing
water them with tears
and keep them pure of hope
needing so badly to touch you

your affections are afflictions
tearing at my resolve
not to give in to the belief we could be

in sincerity's keep, I am faithful
dreaming of your love
a masochist's dream

my days are lost in the noise
I don't know who I am stitched in the shadows
I lose more than I gain
flickering feelings steal the light
and I withdraw deep into the void

catering to demons gripping my heart tight
I don't want to fall deeper into the darkness
chasing butterflies and dreams that don't come...