just try harder...bite me

 
I'm so tired of being told I just need to try harder
as if my failure to fit their mold is a personal affront
not acknowledging the monumental effort it actually took
just to hone in my focus...
...like herding feral cats...
...and complete what I did in any kinda timely fashion
it's like my brain has roadblocks & detours
even I can't see them...until I hit one
stuck staring at the project like it's suddenly impossible
sorting out the best way to overcome & get it done
despite all the jagged messed up trails in my mind
I always manage to make it right
...even though it may take more time
but then I'm hit with "why didn't you just..."
please...until you've struggled inside my ADHD head...
...could you kindly shut up...
...just let me be...I'll get there eventually
I'd love to be able to process quickly & efficiently...
...regularly...
but that's not the way of my inner circuitry
I obsess or shut down until it all comes together...
...when it's ready
and still I arrive at the same destination
in spite of the irregular route
try harder, my ass
how about you try to understand
people like me are different & that's a good thing
think of the variety in ways of thinking we all bring
I'd hate to be trapped in a one note existence
to me...that's what hell is
so I take my time & try not to stress it
it comes in its own time if I just let it
so how about we all give each other a little more room
to do our things at our natural pace
without judgment & getting in one another's face...