wishes

i wish i was better
i wish i could wake up in the morning with thoughts of what a beautiful day it’s going to be.. why?
why can’t i think like that? why is it i wake up everyday to these taunting words screaming at me in the back of my head
i don’t wanna get up i’d rather lay in bed
the thoughts and emotions circling  like a tire
my mind feels like a huge bonfire
i know i need to get better but where do i start
it’s been so long i forgot what it’s like to feel in my heart
my emotions shut down as i drove around town with a frown
i want to be happy but instead i get easily snappy
i wish i was better so i sit and right these letters
They say it takes time but how much longer can i take?
Sometimes i just wish i could take a life break