Lost Girl

I’ve called a few men “Daddy”
But I know destroying his girl,
      ain’t true fatherhood.
I truly do it for me,
       not your twisted fuck fantasies.

I’m still stuck on , How does it feel to be loved by a man?
To be loved by a man without fucking him?…
How does it feel to hug a man without him sliding your panties???

Thats the child in me searching for what I never had
So when I say Daddy please understand its always for me and not your fantasies

Seeking healing from adolescent wounds
I’m lost out here .
They say I’m emotional
My tears validating
I wish you understood how it felt to be me
I wish you what’s underneath the smile

When you see the tears flow
just know I’m trying to clean
the junk left in me
But how can I change when I grew from the pain?

I’m just a girl
Lost with pain