hospital bracelet

I kept the hospital bracelet
from the day I almost died
not anywhere safe
just floating around
where it can easily be misplaced

And I feel like it's a metaphor
for my life
I leave important things everywhere
and they end up in that strange nowhere place
with the lost socks the washing machine ate

No matter how important something is
I can never hold on it
long enough to put it in a safe place
that I remember

Because part of me wants to remember
what I feels like to stare down
this mediocre life I've settled myself into
and part of me wants to forget
that I'm dying for adventures unlived

I don't how to exist in this half way place
and still be happy

I kept the hospital bracelet
from the day I almost died

I think it reminds me of the life
I'm not living