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3am
Sleep is interrupted
for the umpteenth time
rumpled sheets, dismantled pillow cases
and my favorite woobie,
all damp with flop sweat
Sounds of the washing machine—
water mixing those bedclothes,
pierce silent darkness,
become soundtrack
Exhaustion floats all around
dusting it's essence
everywhere
A clumsily one-eyed redress of the bed
as thoughts circle
of 'a much better sleep'
intertwined with a hope
that the new crisp sheets,
bring with them that very confirmation
Quickly showered,
hydrated by copious gulps of water
i slide into fresh pj's,
it's almost an instant ease
Smells of lavender conditioner
and linen cotton bed spray
soften my disposition
coaxing me... in
Waves of wild heat
still randomly roll across
my death valley-esque landscape
like a Mercurian tide at high noon,
radiating out in fiery tongues
burning away secrets
Adjusting the ac
to fully compensate;
there's something about that hum
when it first kicks on that lulls and relaxes—
i imagine ice cubes clinking in a glass
Setting the ambience,
music
lowly imbues
total darkness,
helps trigger sleep mode
-anticipation favors the deprived-
(i whisper)
... into my reset of goodnight
Author's Note
©Blu2023
Just a tiny glimpse into what turning 50 can periodically look like. Luckily, it's only been nights that are few and far between. The joys of aging gracefully (sarcasm) is sometimes fraught with speedbumps of night sweats, cold showers and sleeplessness.
Just a tiny glimpse into what turning 50 can periodically look like. Luckily, it's only been nights that are few and far between. The joys of aging gracefully (sarcasm) is sometimes fraught with speedbumps of night sweats, cold showers and sleeplessness.
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Re. 3am
3rd Apr 2023 8:35pm
Dear BV,
I NEVER would’ve imagined hot flashes as poetically described as I’ve just read! You’ve given this a gentle, soft and bedtime coaxing that is graceful and hypnotic. Now, let me paint you a picture of what my hot flashes at 3 am look like.
Jarred awake soaked in flop sweat.
Not again, you enormous mother f*c…
Stomping! Pounding! Slamming!
New sheets smelling of week long stay in the linen closet.
New pj’s that smell like wood drawers
A pile of sheets on the laundry room floor. A lot more cussing and a huge F you to this unwelcome change!
😏
Clearly I like your version way better. 😉
Bowing down in great admiration.
H🌷
I NEVER would’ve imagined hot flashes as poetically described as I’ve just read! You’ve given this a gentle, soft and bedtime coaxing that is graceful and hypnotic. Now, let me paint you a picture of what my hot flashes at 3 am look like.
Jarred awake soaked in flop sweat.
Not again, you enormous mother f*c…
Stomping! Pounding! Slamming!
New sheets smelling of week long stay in the linen closet.
New pj’s that smell like wood drawers
A pile of sheets on the laundry room floor. A lot more cussing and a huge F you to this unwelcome change!
😏
Clearly I like your version way better. 😉
Bowing down in great admiration.
H🌷
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Re: Re. 3am
3rd Apr 2023 8:49pm
Your version is definitely closer to what the reality of it all is. I was definitely taking poetic license to create a feeling of being welcomed back to sleep which is normally difficult for me to come by. I'm usually in such a fog when nighttime hot flashes happen that it's almost like I'm on autopilot getting myself all cleaned up and situated.
It is infuriating and totally unfair. I have dreams of calling every one of my male friends around the same age, jarring them awake with shrieks telling them their cars are being broken into or something similar. It's cruel but it's still only a portion of the physical reactions that we women go through.... Uggh!... I'm evil, I know!! 😈
lol...It's only a dark fantasy!! heh heh..
Thank you for getting where my mind needed to take this piece and appreciating the idea of a lulling and quick recovery.
I too, wish those night episodes went as poetically.
Lovely to see you 🦋
🌹 💙 💙
xo
It is infuriating and totally unfair. I have dreams of calling every one of my male friends around the same age, jarring them awake with shrieks telling them their cars are being broken into or something similar. It's cruel but it's still only a portion of the physical reactions that we women go through.... Uggh!... I'm evil, I know!! 😈
lol...It's only a dark fantasy!! heh heh..
Thank you for getting where my mind needed to take this piece and appreciating the idea of a lulling and quick recovery.
I too, wish those night episodes went as poetically.
Lovely to see you 🦋
🌹 💙 💙
xo
Re: Re. 3am
3rd Apr 2023 8:37pm
Re. 3am
3rd Apr 2023 9:31pm
Only you my friend could make a sleepless night read so well. Thx for letting us into your secret nightworld. Any word you touch becomes eloquent.
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Re: Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 1:09am
I appreciate you, Debbie! Love that you came along with me on my self admitted battle with aging.
It makes me feel incredible that you enjoyed reading and found what you did, within.
You're lovely.
🌹 💙
B
It makes me feel incredible that you enjoyed reading and found what you did, within.
You're lovely.
🌹 💙
B
Re: Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 11:08am
Re. 3am
3rd Apr 2023 9:40pm
Re: Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 5:08am
Awww... Thank you for your sweet dream sentiments, my dear.
I too, hope the same.
🌹 💙
xo
I too, hope the same.
🌹 💙
xo
Re. 3am
Anonymous
3rd Apr 2023 10:12pm
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Re: Re. 3am
I'm bound to get good sleep when floating along the nightscape of your dreamy rhythmical poetry...
Thank you for taking time to visit and for sharing your creative writing, MB
It's very much welcomed and truly above and beyond
🌹-🖤
Thank you for taking time to visit and for sharing your creative writing, MB
It's very much welcomed and truly above and beyond
🌹-🖤
Re. 3am
3rd Apr 2023 10:14pm
I immediately thought of waking up at 4am today, drenched with sweat and incomprehensibly thirsty. You have such an incredible way with words, Blue. It’s always such a pleasure to see your new work in my updates. Beautifully done! 💖
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Re: Re. 3am
Oh, groan! I very much empathize, Luna! That's the worst way to wake up, too, isn't it! ... Uggh! I full on think exercise and diet play a huge roll. Plus, I've been using this portable sauna almost daily. I bought it off of Amazon and I swear it's helped with a ton of my menopausal side effects. It was my 50th birthday present to myself, one I am so glad that I took the plunge to purchase. It's cute, like a one person collapsible tent that's attached to an awesome and powerful stream generator. It's as good as going to the sauna itself, maybe better, because it's yours and yours only! I think eating more turmeric helps too... but that might just possibly be me! Haha..
Thanks so much for your lovely kind words of appreciation. It's truly meaningful to me, dear lady.
I've been reading your NaPo and just loving it, keep at it!!
Much love and solidarity ;)
🌹💙 - B
Thanks so much for your lovely kind words of appreciation. It's truly meaningful to me, dear lady.
I've been reading your NaPo and just loving it, keep at it!!
Much love and solidarity ;)
🌹💙 - B
Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 00:56am
Re: Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 1:18am
Totally gross.
The ravages of time aren't for the meek, that's for certain!
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, Brenda... Love seeing you, dear lady ✨
🌹B
The ravages of time aren't for the meek, that's for certain!
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, Brenda... Love seeing you, dear lady ✨
🌹B
Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 3:07am
Why not sleep naked? Seriously? You can always have a robe handy for when getting up. Too many layers blocks heat. And do you have a fan on you nearby? It helps! Plus the "white noise" of the fan is an added bonus.
I'm sure you have a mattress liner or something as an added precaution.
I may not be a woman suffering your situation. But I'm a friend who has empathy for ya!
Keep a glass of water by the bed, too. Actually drink some before laying down. Fluid loss is bad. It's better to be woken up cause you have to pee than being woke up from cramping because you're dehydrated at night. It's better to be inconvenienced than in pain!
Here's to a nice cozy sleep!
I'm sure you have a mattress liner or something as an added precaution.
I may not be a woman suffering your situation. But I'm a friend who has empathy for ya!
Keep a glass of water by the bed, too. Actually drink some before laying down. Fluid loss is bad. It's better to be woken up cause you have to pee than being woke up from cramping because you're dehydrated at night. It's better to be inconvenienced than in pain!
Here's to a nice cozy sleep!
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Re: Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 4:18am
Well, when you're experiencing insane hot flashes, being naked almost makes it worse. Cotton... it's breathable!
I have several fans, ceiling, floor and desk... lol. Of course the bed is protected and made of material (as are my pillows) that's supposed to be cooling... I have tervis tumblers always full of ice water on the ready and I drink at least 64oz's of water a day... Trust me, I know hydration is the key!! There's nothing I haven't tried to lessen my body's aging 'antics' so to speak...
Thank you for sharing your ideas and your empathy. It's truly appreciated. My issues are apparently and unfortunately much more brutal than just your average lady's.... Of course, right?!?
Yes, here's to getting those Zzz's!
🌹💙
I have several fans, ceiling, floor and desk... lol. Of course the bed is protected and made of material (as are my pillows) that's supposed to be cooling... I have tervis tumblers always full of ice water on the ready and I drink at least 64oz's of water a day... Trust me, I know hydration is the key!! There's nothing I haven't tried to lessen my body's aging 'antics' so to speak...
Thank you for sharing your ideas and your empathy. It's truly appreciated. My issues are apparently and unfortunately much more brutal than just your average lady's.... Of course, right?!?
Yes, here's to getting those Zzz's!
🌹💙
Anonymous
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4th Apr 2023 4:55am
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Re: Re. 3am
It'll be a long time before I'm typing from a nursing home!!... lol.
Yeah, aging gracefully is mostly a myth. I do like the wisdom of hindsight though...
Thanks for taking the time, Tim
It's much appreciated
🌹 💙
Yeah, aging gracefully is mostly a myth. I do like the wisdom of hindsight though...
Thanks for taking the time, Tim
It's much appreciated
🌹 💙
Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 7:07am
You enjoy yourself with your lover. Keep on writing you strong beautiful smart sexy woman.
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Re: Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 7:49am
Thanks for those sentiments, Francisco. If and when I find one, I certainly will!
lol.
Appreciate you
lol.
Appreciate you
Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 9:10pm
-anticipation favors the deprived-
I often have coffee at 3.
Salon.....?
I often have coffee at 3.
Salon.....?
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Re: Re. 3am
4th Apr 2023 9:27pm
heh heh heh...-giggles 🤭
I was meaning SLEEP deprived..
You have a cuppa @ 3am?
*noted
🌹💙
I was meaning SLEEP deprived..
You have a cuppa @ 3am?
*noted
🌹💙
Re. 3am
5th Apr 2023 3:51pm
I love the intimate focus upon environment and details in this writing, giving us a glimpse not only into a focused moment of your life, but the way you experience your life, grants it subtle, soulful presence.
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Re: Re. 3am
5th Apr 2023 3:57pm
Thanks, Daniel
I appreciate you stopping by to read... your thoughts are always meaningful and truly welcomed.
Hope you are doing well
🌹 💙
B
I appreciate you stopping by to read... your thoughts are always meaningful and truly welcomed.
Hope you are doing well
🌹 💙
B
Re: Re. 3am
5th Apr 2023 4:00pm
Re. 3am
8th Apr 2023 6:13am
Dearest Lady Blue
I know this piece is meant to illustrate the horrors of aging but, frankly, it's a quite sensual piece. Appeals to so many senses. I love the metaphors...the Mars one is genius. You inspire me, young lady🥰 Bravissima🌹
I know this piece is meant to illustrate the horrors of aging but, frankly, it's a quite sensual piece. Appeals to so many senses. I love the metaphors...the Mars one is genius. You inspire me, young lady🥰 Bravissima🌹
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Re: Re. 3am
10th Apr 2023 5:17am
And you definitely continue to inspire me, as well!
Your comments made my night! You're truly incorrigible... and I love that to pieces.
Muah - 💋💋💋
Thank you, my majestic bear!
🌹 💙 💙
Your comments made my night! You're truly incorrigible... and I love that to pieces.
Muah - 💋💋💋
Thank you, my majestic bear!
🌹 💙 💙
Re. 3am
11th Apr 2023 3:03pm
I love the sensuality of this. Sounds scents textures all familiar and reassuring.
Sometimes the best sleep is after the 3 am chores…if it comes.
Lovely poem.
❣️❣️❣️🙏
Sometimes the best sleep is after the 3 am chores…if it comes.
Lovely poem.
❣️❣️❣️🙏
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Re. 3am
12th Apr 2023 2:36am
Insomnia was never more sensual than in your brilliantly rendered might of womanly evocation. As I read this I imagined your voice giving audio to your words. And the lusciousness of that voice I have come to know gave me the most delicious thrill. Visualizing your shower and the scintillating sensation of putting on your PJs led me down a very beautiful country lane in the springtime of my youth. And for that, I am forever grateful to you my darling.
XoXoXo
John
XoXoXo
John
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Re: Re. 3am
12th Apr 2023 2:28pm
You're a gem, John.
It's not often that the ails if aging can be complimented with such a hearty welcome and viscerally intense response. I am delighted I could convey myself well enough... and that you felt what you have.
Thank you for sharing your generous nature and insightful comments, my lovely.
It means a lot to me.
🌹-Susan
It's not often that the ails if aging can be complimented with such a hearty welcome and viscerally intense response. I am delighted I could convey myself well enough... and that you felt what you have.
Thank you for sharing your generous nature and insightful comments, my lovely.
It means a lot to me.
🌹-Susan
Re. 3am
15th Apr 2023 7:32pm
👏 👏 👏 👏 👏 👏 so true 👍 queen 👸 appreciate your amazing 👏 poetic 👌!!! Musing peace ✌ and blessings 🙏 always 💖
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Re: Re. 3am
15th Apr 2023 8:35pm
Hi there, Rich
It's a pleasure to have you stop by, thank you for your thoughtful comments. Glad you enjoyed reading and found something that interested you here.
Lovely meeting you,
🌹B
It's a pleasure to have you stop by, thank you for your thoughtful comments. Glad you enjoyed reading and found something that interested you here.
Lovely meeting you,
🌹B
Re: Re. 3am
17th Apr 2023 4:24pm
Re. 3am
20th Apr 2023 8:27pm
I say screw aging gracefully. I'm going out like a super nova in some B grade sci-fi movie.
Well done.
hugs,
buddhakitty.
Well done.
hugs,
buddhakitty.
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Re: Re. 3am
20th Apr 2023 9:39pm
bahahahaha!! .. That's totally how I feel @ those sweat 😰 covered 3am moments, especially ... Just like,
🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻 to all and everything!!
Gotta love that spunk and the 'they can go eff themselves' - kinda spirit.
I've hard earned every single molten sweat droplet!
Thanks for the solidarity, my dear.
🌹 💙 💙 - 🔥 ❤️🔥💥💥
🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻 to all and everything!!
Gotta love that spunk and the 'they can go eff themselves' - kinda spirit.
I've hard earned every single molten sweat droplet!
Thanks for the solidarity, my dear.
🌹 💙 💙 - 🔥 ❤️🔥💥💥
Re. 3am
9th May 2023 2:02pm
Ah what the joy of waking up at this hour must be a thing with us GenXers. At times o consider going to the gym but my body and willl fight back saying no way.
I couldn’t help but notice the underlying sensuality and anticipation of a good night’s sleep.
I couldn’t help but notice the underlying sensuality and anticipation of a good night’s sleep.
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Re: Re. 3am
9th May 2023 3:18pm
It's hell getting older... it's definitely a surprise sometimes..that I'm already at this stage in my life!! It's flown by, it seems.
Thanks for the solidarity and the visit, W.
Glad you caught the little bit of sensuality I threw in... ;)
Hope you are doing well -
-B
Thanks for the solidarity and the visit, W.
Glad you caught the little bit of sensuality I threw in... ;)
Hope you are doing well -
-B