Unanswered Prayers

I used to pray to God every night
I'd pray for his presence
For him to come and take me away
To hold me while I cried
To stop my fathers words
I'd pray for him to save me
For him to hear my screams
To see my suffering
I prayed until I was thirteen
Until I was too tired to keep going
I couldn't beg anymore
Not for someone who was never there
I gave my all
My everything
Only for nothing in return
I was a child
I needed help
I deserved help
And instead he stood and laughed
He laughed as I fell
As each bone in my body broke
He was watched and didn't offer a hand
He didn't even lift a finger
So excuse me if I lost my belief
If I've changed
But that girl deserved more
She deserved better
I deserved better
And still do