Hurting Heart

This hurts so much, it breaks my heart,
I want to talk to you, but I just can't seem to start,
My feelings are so mixed, sometimes it drives me crazy,
My head is stuck in the clouds, and my vision goes hazy.
I feel as if talking to you
Is the right thing to do,
As if I would be sad and disappointed forever if I lost this chance,
My brain and my heart are in this terrible death dance,
I've never felt this way about anyone before,
And I've had feelings for people before.
My brain and my heart continue to argue,
Argue over what I should do,
My heart says, "Do it, or you'll regret it",
My brain says, "I can't, something will go wrong with it",
Or "You won't like me because I'm too awkward, or
I'm a few years older, or..."
"Or, or, or...."
There's always some excuse in my brain,
It brings my heart such pain,
My heart is screaming at my head,
Whishing it was so very dead,
So that it wouldn't keep sabotaging me,
And so that I could clearly see,
And do what is right,
Without having to fight.
I'm so scared, downright petrified,
Your eyes and your smile leave me stupefied,
You're so beautiful it's intimidating,
You're so wholesome it's intimidating,
You're so kind, goofy, sweet, and intelligent, it's intimidating,
You're so responsible and respectful, it's intimidating.
Your heart is like candy, coated in marshmallow,
Dipped in chocolate, guilded in gold, not hollow,
Wrapped in clouds, sprinkled with dewdrops,
And hung amongst the stars, like the most heavenly of props,
It's so much more than I've ever felt,
Like I've hit my head, and can feel the welt,
I don't quite know what to do,
Though I'm trying harder to speak to you.
What do I do? What do I say?
I sometimes don't think you'd even like me anyway.