Emotional Attachement

I attached, because of the holes in my heart.
 I didn't know you are actually bad. At the time,you were all that I had.
Your presence light a spark of joy in my heart.

 I fluttered, love is something I finally had.
But you got toxic,you stabbed me in the back.
 I'm still bleeding from the knife you held.

 You pushed it in deep, now I hate myself.
I still wonder if the problem was me.
I told you I love you,but you didn't say you miss me.

  If you don't love me,why did you kiss me?
 For you,i was just a toy. I'm not something you had to destroy.
To get anything, you whispered in my ear.

Saying that all you wanted was for me to be near.
 Now all I hear is demonic screech.
I no longer can believe your speech.

 I needed help,and so I reached onto you.
You held me in your arms,I can't say that's not true.
But then ,you dropped me onto the spikes.

My smile was covered with blood.
Your presence is all I ever had.
People tell that I am mad. But really,

friends is something I just never had.
 In this judgemental world,i walked all alone.
The devil pushed me off my throne.

Now I can no longer feel at home.