Silent Tears

The pain is increasing so I take more and more pills sadly I think its in my mind this is the way I'll be killed......I'm a fragile person I've always been that way one day I will break is today that day....sad to the core been that way for years my heart is so pained I can never stop the tears...they always fall silently so no one else knows I have so many sorrows so many woos....what can be done to make everything okay I dont kno I keep asking myself every moment of every day....I look in the mirror and I never like what I see I'm so hard on myself I dont see what they see.....I need help I kno I'll die all alone cause I push everyone away I'm deceitful and self-destructive in the end everyone must pay....karma is a bytch and we all have a debt you think your life is good then the bad comes and you get what you get.....All the things you've done come back to haunt you but remember you made your choices so here take the consequences too....You may not like what you get but you reap what you sow so think about what you do it can be the difference between a friend and a foe...life is unpredictable but control the things you can you can make you life better if you have the right plan.....life is too short and we don't kno when we'll go could be today or even tomorrow....no one is ever promised the future days to come so cherish what you got you can't risk being dumb....