fractured need~with the talented Indie

 
heckled thoughts
it's Jekyll again
laughing at my feelings saying they aren't worthy
I cringe because I think it's true

inside me I step back to the shadows
a monster? maybe, but the darkness gets me
I am not ironic or sardonic
a little satirical perhaps

I like to play with words
not peoples feelings
if I like you you'll know it
I hate that I feel this way

laughed at

mercy me but ain't you pretty
my name is madness

do you fear it?

I come with specters
don't worry about sunshine
it's the dark you better be worried about

inside the bleak I scream
until I got used to it
now it doesn't scare me
I know the insane ones

I don't know it's so angry
my darkness peaks and I plead
it hurts to feel this bare inside
I am and I am nothing within the noise
jilted honesty weeps

it's as it should be

It's insidious
the way it creeps
snakes through my veins
lies in wait and strikes
when I'm most exposed

I hate the way all my nerve endings fry
and cry out in an existential agony
I hide behind a liars face

I'm so good at wearing the mask
everyone else wants to see
some days I want to break
my own reflection
just to see the fractures bleed