Too Many

Tonight I had more than I should
till my heart beat
one hundred percent proof
 
I saw her
my ideal version
of how I imagine you
yet we've never met
so I make it up
 
that this
 
this is you
your real name is now hers
 
she's had enough drinks
for inhibitions to slink off like a dog in the night
 
I write her a poem on a napkin
something I know
would get you wet
she smiles
she fingers the tops of her breasts
twirling her hair in hand
squeals in delight at the climax
(You would never do that shit)
 
I fuck her in the carpark
hard
she cums
baying like a fucking animal
 
I can't
 
because she isn't you
spit on her back
pretend I'm done
 
I fade out of her life
plenty more pubs to drink at
 
I go home
read your words to me