day zero

I woke up today in pain
but I didn't wake up anxious
I didn't have an attack
while making coffee
or getting breakfast

We watched movies
as I coughed up my lungs
my throat on fire
from another sickness
my two year old
picked up from daycare

I played games on my phone
as he clambered all over
the couch and me
before running off
to play with blocks
and books
and a wonderfully
obnoxious drum kit

I drank my cold coffee
in easy comfort
for the first time
in weeks
despite a headache
and sore throat

It's been just over a week
since I've been home
and today feels like day zero
free of irrational fears and anxieties

I showered without fearing
ghosts in the bathroom
and that feels
like the greatest win of all

© Indie Adams 2022