darkshine~insidious need

 
jilted dreams fellatio my feelings
making me cry
I feel it all, I feel nothing
inside my dread I scream

raped emotions defiled in the dark
lie to themselves
good times for all, yeah
except for me

in the contemptuous light vilified by my conscious
tears within the honesty
speak of better days
guileless truth is more trouble than its worth
its bitterness cuts

I feel too much late at night
then fade come daylight
a shadow of my worth left

smiling for all the shiny people
till my brittle smile cracks
and I'm lonely again