promises

 
tears like promises not kept
pool in my soul to be released
a moment at a time

grief at who I am and who i am not
I wonder at the sadness
from whence it comes?

it whispers secrets in my ears
I keen quietly so no one knows what I do
my sorrow grows intimate with me
so close a companion I wonder how long we've been acquainted

was it just this life or many?

melancholy my confidant
from her loving cup I sip
blood of my marrow

my wisdom intertwined with the honestly of pain,
the blue of my understanding
dwelling in the feeling

I succumb
today I weep bitter tears of regret