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Decisions
How and why -
People refrain from the pain
of deep
Self disclosure,
Either,
Out of incapacity,
or,
fear
of
Depth
Without closure:
The superficiality of the mundane -
the surface lovers
At
surface levels,
as,
Preservation
Prevention
Of over extension -
or exertion
of perception,
In self exploration
of
Another self…
Cellestial collisions
&
Decisions
Published 4th Sep 2021
Author's Note
... I was thinking about communication, in the context of a relationship.
I think perhaps there is a sort of continuum, in this regard, where the deeper we get the greater the chaos/disorder, but the greater the potential for deeper levels of connection.
... I have not been in a relationship for..? I dont know how long. Honestly, I have only really been in one relationship, where I felt like we just ventured into these sort of depths.
... I have been told by multiple people that I am secretive/mysterious, even when I try to be transparent.
I understand this. Maybe it is just what we become. or unique to me.
... Nevertheless, I was thinking about this continuum.
I think perhaps there is a sort of continuum, in this regard, where the deeper we get the greater the chaos/disorder, but the greater the potential for deeper levels of connection.
... I have not been in a relationship for..? I dont know how long. Honestly, I have only really been in one relationship, where I felt like we just ventured into these sort of depths.
... I have been told by multiple people that I am secretive/mysterious, even when I try to be transparent.
I understand this. Maybe it is just what we become. or unique to me.
... Nevertheless, I was thinking about this continuum.
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5th Sep 2021 1:13pm
I completely agree with the aspect of the different levels, R. I do not think that any is any lesser or greater than the other, on a fundamental level, perhaps.
... Such a wonderful analogy, that of the burning of the candle.
... "Being mysterious is the axis of being transparent."
(This really speaks to me on a deep level, as I feel like I interface with that aspect of myself, and draw forth energy which is applied to transparency, or levels of transparency.)
... "You know a quartz stone becomes more hazy as time goes by but will always hold the quantum particle
of quartz within!"
Wow... Just Wow!
Thank you so much my Great Friend.
... Such a wonderful analogy, that of the burning of the candle.
... "Being mysterious is the axis of being transparent."
(This really speaks to me on a deep level, as I feel like I interface with that aspect of myself, and draw forth energy which is applied to transparency, or levels of transparency.)
... "You know a quartz stone becomes more hazy as time goes by but will always hold the quantum particle
of quartz within!"
Wow... Just Wow!
Thank you so much my Great Friend.
5th Sep 2021 1:33am
“I have not been in a relationship for..? I dont know how long. Honestly, I have only really been in one relationship, where I felt like we just ventured into these sort of depths.
I have been told by multiple people that I am secretive/mysterious, even when I try to be transparent.
I understand this. Maybe it is just what we become. or unique to me…”
I think the aforementioned section is part of the human condition as I’m convinced many of us become that way; whether we admit it or not.
Love the flow of your write, and the deep dive into the profound complexities of the heart & psyche whilst each battles with one another in duality in an everlasting tug-o-war…🙏
I have been told by multiple people that I am secretive/mysterious, even when I try to be transparent.
I understand this. Maybe it is just what we become. or unique to me…”
I think the aforementioned section is part of the human condition as I’m convinced many of us become that way; whether we admit it or not.
Love the flow of your write, and the deep dive into the profound complexities of the heart & psyche whilst each battles with one another in duality in an everlasting tug-o-war…🙏
5th Sep 2021 1:17pm
I tend to agree with you. Tis a part of some natural process, which is akin to the new born's streamlining of neural networks, except this is an expansion of solitude based energies, or energies of non self disclosure, perhaps.
... Ending in the wanting/needing to be alone in darkness, at the end of things. (how depressing is that? how beautiful?). Beautiful because I think this is a fortunate outcome, in consideration of many other possibilities, perhaps.
...
"Love the flow of your write, and the deep dive into the profound complexities of the heart & psyche whilst each battles with one another in duality in an everlasting tug-o-war…"
(Thank you so much for these beautiful words. I deeply treasure them.)
... Ending in the wanting/needing to be alone in darkness, at the end of things. (how depressing is that? how beautiful?). Beautiful because I think this is a fortunate outcome, in consideration of many other possibilities, perhaps.
...
"Love the flow of your write, and the deep dive into the profound complexities of the heart & psyche whilst each battles with one another in duality in an everlasting tug-o-war…"
(Thank you so much for these beautiful words. I deeply treasure them.)
