Being back involved with my ex ( I give up, it's time to move on)

Being back involved with an ex: every since you left me for the guy that you thought was the one I was torn. Leaving me with my hands outreaching for your love and attention, but you gave it to some people who didn't deserve it. Pillow talking to your friends who were out to destroy me. You left a scar on my body so deep that the skin won't grow back. I used that pain to elevate and achieve my goals. You is still on my mind all the time, I asked God if it's meant to send you my way, but I'm too impatient I want you now. So I contact you with a little message saying I love you, I want you back in my life, but you still feel the opposite of how I feel. A couple of days after I told you that, everything you did to me in the past coming back while you still acting the same way with no text or no phone conversation. I had to realize that things are not going to be the same anymore as I was hoping you were going to right your wrongs with me. It's too deep to be friends because I'm still in love with you and I want some different. Why would we go back to something we came from instead of how we were? I believe it's time to let go and let God handle it, I'm just going to walk away because I don't want to go through this again, I still love you always and forever.