Just Writing... February 20, 2012

How many faces does regret really have? I see many. It taking the human-like form, causing destruction on lives. My regret reflected and magnified in the eyes of those i care about. Those who truly know me. Well, the real me.. Regret takes flame, it can burn down and turn hopes, dreams even, to mere ashes. There are many things i regret in my life. Things i wish i could change.. Past events, many i hardly speak of.. Why? Because i trust few. Very few. People have had my trust, but they've pretty much just ripped it to shreds and set it alight. Do they regret that too, or is it just me? Probably doesn't even matter. Regret forms a very good enemy. It knows you, your every move. Following your steps and striking with a perfect counter. Running only causes it to get worse. No matter how fast you run, it catches you at every corner. Regret can engulf your life if you let it. Swallow you up in its tortuous flame. Or you can fight. The choice is yours though. I know what it takes to move on.. Sometimes i wish i could. Memories of people, events.. They're killing me inside. But as sad as it sounds.. I think this pain and regret might actually be keeping me alive..