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a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaganza)
My brow furrows
I don't get it
(I never quite get it!.)
The promise of sunshine
of tomorrow's hopes
Always, it seems—
it's tomorrow.
When sometimes all I really need
is a little bit of today
There's timing
and how it's never right.
is it ever?
Friends, families
Those pressures
so uniquely difficult
putting upon
pressing down
and forever changing.
Hours spent trying to reconcile
Logistics and specifics,
it all equals less sleep
than I need to function
and to be called
"healthy"
I used to shine
now I barely...
exist in just barely
a loss of luster
or an appeal
Finding myself missing,
lost within the hordes
of work at home
Inconsequentials
We're a new breed,
p'rhaps to be added
to those existing unnoticed
who are only seemingly missed,
after two weeks
by the smell, permeating
-I almost joke-
We caricatures
of the former living
slowly being transformed
into unsuspecting Zoom zombies
The job ~ the. job.
(sigh)
My job
not a career
just a job
How I mostly hate it
except on days
where I am left on my own
as a badass lone wolf.
Then, I miss the before
Terribly.
The wistful pre pandemic
(*cue the montage music)
https://youtu.be/CnQ8N1KacJc
I felt successful
healthy and alive
Hopeful for a new relationship
love or a connection
with purpose and happiness
Kissing! ...
All the kisses!
Sex, and flirting
and more sex
So. Much. Flirting.
If they gave out degrees in flirting
I'd have my doctorate
maybe two, as I specialize
Instead,
there's today—
where I just feel lucky
not to have covid
and that I'm a half vax
to become fully on the 20th
Lonely- yet alive, as a potential Zoom zombie
(which I feel is today's version
of a crazy cat lady, not that there's
ANYTHING wrong with that! )
with family issues,
a year's long yearning desire for commitment
and some spectacularly, incredible
hours long, sexual scenarios of every sort
Well, most every sort...
"That's probably burying the lede.."
I say out loud,
with my mind in release
and a long sigh
finally exhaled...
Author's Note
© Blu2021... inside my own mental ping pong
My #Nopoo from a few days ago, cleaned up a bit...
My #Nopoo from a few days ago, cleaned up a bit...
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Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaganza)
11th Apr 2021 7:37pm
Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
12th Apr 2021 10:35am
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11th Apr 2021 7:41pm
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Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
You're astute, Tim... indeed. Sex isn't solely my biggest miss (giggles at 'biggest & bigger' because I am such a 12 year old.. lol) but it's definitely a portion... a bigger one, albeit but I think the actual connection has been more desirable , if not neck and neck.... 'in a perfect world', right?!?... yeah...
.... ha!... I thank you so much for reading and taking the time to leave your thoughts and introspections. I enjoy your remarks, (a lot) and appreciate your list add.
Here's to being fully vaccinated and a promising future....
🌹
xo
.... ha!... I thank you so much for reading and taking the time to leave your thoughts and introspections. I enjoy your remarks, (a lot) and appreciate your list add.
Here's to being fully vaccinated and a promising future....
🌹
xo
Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaganza)
11th Apr 2021 7:45pm
Sounds like you cleaned your house, soul, and heart beautiful. I hope you are noe prepared for good things, happier times and of course true love. Then let the kissing commence
Get your self a chapstick cherry flavoured of course and pucker up
Love and light
Ron xx
Get your self a chapstick cherry flavoured of course and pucker up
Love and light
Ron xx
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Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
I am truly trying to clear the cobwebs (yes, I get the funny, naughty visual you probably just had!) and get my thoughts together to purge the bullshit. I appreciate your lovely comments and the recommendations!! I like peach flavor chapstick.. I found it special and it's my hallmark. Damn right I taste like a peach!!! hahahaha... 🍑
Much love, respect and smooches!
🌹🍑🌹
-B
Much love, respect and smooches!
🌹🍑🌹
-B
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Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
11th Apr 2021 8:39pm
😉 I do my best... 🔥✨🔥
It feels phenomenal to vent and rid myself of myself..lol.. I'm my worst own toxicity...
I appreciate you reading and taking the time to leave your thoughts for me, Claude.
I've provided myself with enough self gratification for a fucking lifetime... I'm on break.
It's making things interesting!
Thanks again
🌹
xo
It feels phenomenal to vent and rid myself of myself..lol.. I'm my worst own toxicity...
I appreciate you reading and taking the time to leave your thoughts for me, Claude.
I've provided myself with enough self gratification for a fucking lifetime... I'm on break.
It's making things interesting!
Thanks again
🌹
xo
Anonymous
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11th Apr 2021 8:49pm
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Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaganza)
11th Apr 2021 8:36pm
This is yet quite another impressive poem from you, Blue. It has a very strong opening verse which provides the hook or sustainability for the rest of the poem. To me it's like you want to sort your life out but never quite get there because something else props up that sets you back a little. Believe me, I understand you more than you know because of the way to are able to express your feelings in that human way that many of us can identify with. Wanting to get to the finish line only to find it has been extended! Speaking of finishing lines, personally, I would have ended the poem at 'Instead, there's only today. " Ok, I added a word but all we have is today.
Here's a little lighthearted ad which reminds me of your poem, lol:
https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://m.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3Dfk1expLGmY4&ved=2ahUKEwj956nV9_bvAhUX_rsIHdjdDeQQwqsBMAB6BAgDEAg&usg=AOvVaw0UcjTV4Dj2vVO3_NYGx-29
Here's a little lighthearted ad which reminds me of your poem, lol:
https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://m.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3Dfk1expLGmY4&ved=2ahUKEwj956nV9_bvAhUX_rsIHdjdDeQQwqsBMAB6BAgDEAg&usg=AOvVaw0UcjTV4Dj2vVO3_NYGx-29
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Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
11th Apr 2021 8:45pm
Ohh Billy!.. Wow !
Your thoughts are very close to my own here. I'm so very appreciative of you taking the time to share with me and I am so grateful for the compliments. I often cringe when I post my long pieces, thinking I'm flying solo, in my own head.
It's a relief to feel like I not alone. I will definitely consider that ending, absolutely!. Your kindness is never overlooked and deeply valued, my friend.
Warmest regards,
🌹
xo
-B
Your thoughts are very close to my own here. I'm so very appreciative of you taking the time to share with me and I am so grateful for the compliments. I often cringe when I post my long pieces, thinking I'm flying solo, in my own head.
It's a relief to feel like I not alone. I will definitely consider that ending, absolutely!. Your kindness is never overlooked and deeply valued, my friend.
Warmest regards,
🌹
xo
-B
Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
11th Apr 2021 8:47pm
Please play the link. I'd like to hear your reaction. You may have to copy&paste the long link but it's worth it. 😉
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Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
11th Apr 2021 8:56pm
Hee hee hee... it's a shame there's no meerkat emoji! It's a perfect comparison.. hahahaha.. I'm giggling 🤭 I liked the sorting of rubber bands... ha!!! I Too precious and hysterical.
Ty so much for sharing!
🌹
x
Ty so much for sharing!
🌹
x
Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
11th Apr 2021 9:01pm
You're welcome. I just imagine that is you, trying to nail down the day & feel 'complete' somehow, even if just for one sodding day, right? 😉
Thanks for taking a look & I'm glad it made you smile.
Thanks for taking a look & I'm glad it made you smile.
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Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaganza)
11th Apr 2021 8:40pm
Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
11th Apr 2021 8:47pm
Haha... you know it, Colin
You get it 💯 💯 💯 💯
I knew that you would.
Much love and super hugs
💜🤖 💜🤖💜🤖💜🤖
xo
You get it 💯 💯 💯 💯
I knew that you would.
Much love and super hugs
💜🤖 💜🤖💜🤖💜🤖
xo
Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaganza)
11th Apr 2021 11:19pm
I read this while listening to ambient Celtic music. Your stream of emotion embraced me in my solitude and I felt all of it in my marrow. The whole poem connected to me on a deep level. Each strand of introspection took me into fathoms of feeling inescapable and profound. This is the work of a woman of knowledge and strength. That power to envision all this is indomitable and leaves me in deep bliss.
Xo
John
Xo
John
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Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
You are a writer of epic proportions, John.
I was married for almost ten years and with my
ex-husband for almost eight years, prior to that.
Let me say in 100% certainty that I have NEVER had something written about or directed at me that has me left in such awe. I don't quite know what to say other than thank you, my friend. I am so grateful for your thoughtfulness and if I have even the teeniest ability to brighten a small part of your day, I'm utterly grateful for that, too.
Thank you for the generous list add, as well....
so so much!!
🌹
in friendship,
-Susan
I was married for almost ten years and with my
ex-husband for almost eight years, prior to that.
Let me say in 100% certainty that I have NEVER had something written about or directed at me that has me left in such awe. I don't quite know what to say other than thank you, my friend. I am so grateful for your thoughtfulness and if I have even the teeniest ability to brighten a small part of your day, I'm utterly grateful for that, too.
Thank you for the generous list add, as well....
so so much!!
🌹
in friendship,
-Susan
Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaganza)
12th Apr 2021 5:26am
Dear BV,
This is battle fatigue at its worst. One thing I know about human behavior is we won’t stand for being caged forever. As for the sex thing, a little frank talk would be just the ticket. Just call Frank at 1-800-069-SEXT. Hang in there. You’re doing great especially when you post your poems. H🌷
This is battle fatigue at its worst. One thing I know about human behavior is we won’t stand for being caged forever. As for the sex thing, a little frank talk would be just the ticket. Just call Frank at 1-800-069-SEXT. Hang in there. You’re doing great especially when you post your poems. H🌷
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Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
12th Apr 2021 6:27am
😂 😂 😂 😂 😂 😂 😂 😂 😂
Going to bed giggling is the best.
Ty for that, H
Much love your way.
Appreciate the digits and the list add!
*wink
🌹-B
xo
Going to bed giggling is the best.
Ty for that, H
Much love your way.
Appreciate the digits and the list add!
*wink
🌹-B
xo
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12th Apr 2021 6:40am
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Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
12th Apr 2021 5:34pm
Hee hee hee...
I know this type of epic comment probably wasn't easy or something you're used to, my lovely friend so I really REALLY appreciate you taking the time to leave your thoughts with me. Yes, throwing caution is a fleeting thought of deliciousness. Yet, it's my longing for a connection... an understanding on several levels that is my most arousing notion... I love your wording...
The fate of love overcoming... yes, ineed.
Such an extreme pleasure, Ru
Please don't be a stranger as this was a highlight, reading today.
Much love from across the ether 💫✨💫
xoxo
-Susan
I know this type of epic comment probably wasn't easy or something you're used to, my lovely friend so I really REALLY appreciate you taking the time to leave your thoughts with me. Yes, throwing caution is a fleeting thought of deliciousness. Yet, it's my longing for a connection... an understanding on several levels that is my most arousing notion... I love your wording...
The fate of love overcoming... yes, ineed.
Such an extreme pleasure, Ru
Please don't be a stranger as this was a highlight, reading today.
Much love from across the ether 💫✨💫
xoxo
-Susan
Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaganza)
12th Apr 2021 5:29pm
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5th Apr 2022 5:53am
Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaganza)
24th May 2021 4:06pm
Your stream of consciousness is very relatable to many of us. It feels as if time just slips by, especially when you said "all I really need is a little bit of today". As we slowly get back to normal (which I don't think it will ever be normal, but that opens up another topic), the need for human/social interaction also takes on a new meaning.
Insightful and inspiring write.
Insightful and inspiring write.
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Re: Re. a bit of spring cleaning. (a stream of consciousness extravaga
24th May 2021 4:24pm
Thanks for your insightful comments, Wally.
I very much appreciate you, the generous list add and the solidarity you conveyed.
I don't believe that we'll (speaking of society in general) ever quite be the same, either... but at least we're getting closer to a semblance...
I am so grateful for your visit, it's always such a pleasure ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹-💙
B
I very much appreciate you, the generous list add and the solidarity you conveyed.
I don't believe that we'll (speaking of society in general) ever quite be the same, either... but at least we're getting closer to a semblance...
I am so grateful for your visit, it's always such a pleasure ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹-💙
B