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to be a shade.... of yellow

   
      
Fuck~ these hot rolling tears      
i hate my desperation        
loathsome raw throat closing      
this familiar ache      
self diagnosed asphyxiation      
by my own kindness      
i'm certain        
       
pride left in ash      
sense of self....        
just worthlessness        
never enough      
an exhausting      
pot vs kettle    
nonstop beating drum        
       
doomed        
in a type of repetitive damnation      
constantly seeking      
a little bit of revocation        
       
nothingness      
alone      
my usual state of being        
       
dripping blood      
bones broken      
pierce skin      
in gross protruding      
       
hands missing fingers      
ears fallen deaf      
no toes on my feet      
just imperfect      
ugly      
and voiceless      
       
Oh how I embrace        
my creature      
of black
     
       
missing tongue      
ripped in shreds      
muted silence      
sharpened razor wire      
shorn down my back      
millions of paper cuts      
sting and sear      
every single        
little pain      
salted shouts      
so perfectly clear      
       
hues morph      
twisting into a colorful      
hated swirl      
a mind barely intact      
thoughts confuse me        
before a fall into unconscious peril      
       
tail spun yellow     
that's all I see        
how it's saturated  
into my very being  
       
       
through all  
of my black  
 
 
 
 
 
 
of this unfortunate bleed.
       
       
       
       
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