pointless

Its a dailey struggle to keep myself sane.
I cant deal with all this hurt and pain.
I feel like everytime I step in a room,
all eyes are on me.
Telling me who I need to be.
I've never been a quiter,
dont get me wrong.
Damn im not this strong.
I cant stand myself.
Im always second geussing myself.
All these people try to box me in.
I just need some oxgen.
I dont want to be sheltered,
or have to hide my head under the covers.
Everytime I try and go to sleep,
I see you on top of me.
I want to be free of these chains,
and run free.
so I can finally be me..
dear god will i ever recover?
the anger gets stronger everyday
i try to hold it in,
but it beats me in the end.
when will I win.
Its about to burst,
and someones going to be in a herse.
No one knows how to deal with me,
when im hurt and angry.
They just blow me off,
I geuss they'll let the devil finish me off.