Jagged,Rare, Flaws, Yep That's Me !

This is about lil' ol' me
No.I am Just_Me, no superstar
I can't dance or play the guitar
Never had a cigarette or a cigar
Definitely unique, some may say sweet, but I totally disagree

I am a mother
Oldest child, one sister, one brother
One living grandparent ,she has an honest mouth, it can cut like no other
My step dad has dementia, a ruthless disease
Unable to say what's on his mind, I wonder what memories he can see

In California, came to help my mother, thought I knew her, so much I've discovered
Met new friends, all of them are so awesomely amazing
Each of their stories are truly captivating

I have gorgeous eyes,cutest button nose,and a smartass mouth on a mean mug
A bitch, a sweetheart, or a cunning enemy
By your actions I'll treat you accordingly

My mind and my heart is in a constant battle
Unrelenting confusion torments my soul
Don't know what to do, any and all reasons stay questionable
Clutching on stretched sanity,with weakening hope, I'm loosing my hold

I'm by no means a perfect angel
Committed crimes,done drugs,told lies
Spending time in jail made me realize
Undeserving fear and pain I caused, sadly irreversible

I've been knocked to the ground, but I stay undefeated
Gained knowledge, lessons learned, and currently homeless
Never knew Santa, heard he's fake, I know for a fact Karma serves deserved consequences
I say how it is, meaning what I say, never sugarcoated

My fears, do I get scared?
Scary masks, heights, or causing pain to piece of heart someone gave me

I believe there's many keys to happiness
One door would be ridiculous
Here's what I think, be grateful, cherish humility,own integrity, let your soul play,give love especially to the less fortunate,thankful for that last breath you took,know fear is liar,dreams come true with manual labor,your GOD given gift is not just for you,and out of all the worlds riches,YOU are the most priceless

Well..enough about lil' ol' me
It's time for you to make more extraordinary memories