Feelings

Tho left feeling messed up and misunderstood,..
Each effort, a failure, tho my intentions were good.
Torn up on the inside , where I'm riddled with pain ...
Such emotional baggage,  slowly going insane.
I try to fight back the tears but they come flooding thru.
God what am I doing ?
I don't know what  to do. .
All I know is  I'm  failing , and I can't do this no more.  
I can't fight this battle , tho no stranger to war.  
I gather my strength , tho I'm really so weak.  
Alone in the solitude,  tho its comfort I seek.
Forgive me Dear Father but it just isn't fair.
I reach out to someone ,
But there's nobody there.
Each effort I give becomes another mistake ..
Full speed ahead till  I slam on the breaks.
Life in the fast lane ,  has rendered me slow..
And now I'm stuck at the crossroads with nowhere to go..