I Saw You

I saw you  
6 I the morning
Just rolled out of a club,
a little worse for wear and 
ready to face the dawn
 I stand at the bus stop, 
Not really waiting, you know 
Just gazing 
at the ground beneath my feet
 Lost in thought
Then I hear a hiss
I lookup
 The doors open right in front of me
 Leading me to a moment 
I had played in my mind many times over
 until I knew exactly 
what I would do and say
 
 And I saw you
Standing there frozen in time 
Our eyes lock
 Like two stags in the fog at dawn
 Now it’s me who has frozen
 I read what your eyes say 
And I know you recognise me
Though I'm older
 We both know what you did
 You didn’t expect this 
You’re caught off guard 
And I’m not a kid you can threaten anymore
 But I can’t see anything in those 
Empty Diseased spheres 
Two bottomless holes of rotting spirit
And you shift your gaze 
Like nothing happened
 
I saw you
 In a second  
 My mind races a thousand miles
 And as you turn and walk away  
 I’m shaking  
 Cursing myself for not breaking  
 Your kneck like  id  
 Rehearsed so many times before
 My heart is racing
 the moment has finally come
 Your days are numbered  
 And I follow you for a while
 See you duck into a doorway
 Hiding behind boxes in an alleyway
I watch you walk into a place 
That's easy to find again
 
I saw you 
They’ll have no problem finding you and 
It will feel good when 
You are wiped from this world like the 
The pestilence that you have become
What you left me with
Maybe if I take away a little of what you took from me, 
I can be whole again
I Can find peace 
Maybe she would still be here
But a stinging realisation washes over me 
Almost as soon as I formulate the thought
There's nothing I can do
Or you can say
That can change the past 
Wipe this memory from my mind 
When I think of that day
I saw you