THE TEARS OF A CLOWN

 
I've been abandoned by the ones I loved most, they left me empty handed
I'm stressed over companionships, heart broken by those old romances
I'm a motherfucking mess because I'm damaged, damaged at a disadvantage
Bipolar and cold no chances, falling slow as feelings vanish
One too many missed opportunities ruined me
No time for any rumors, don't want to hear none of that foolishness
I've been moking stupid weed, I swear I'm higher than a stewardess
No solution so to me it feels as if I'm losing it
Low self esteem left me lonely cause the world's cold
Too good to be true it is cause all that glistens isn't gold
I'm out of control and in a lot of pain but nobody knows
Done a lot of drugs I'd be surprised if I make it old
Told a ton of lies I probably sound like a broken record
But it's so hard to stay sober with my hopeless efforts
Whenever I'm stressed I obsess over my imperfections
I've been driving myself insane daily with so many questions
Even though my heart's full of pain you'll never know
I laugh to keep myself from crying so it never shows
On the inside I been dying and I can't let it go
I swear to God I'm trying so tell me please can you save my soul
My luck is running low and I feel like I'm about to break
Black sheep, my family hates me and I feel misplaced
I've made so many mistakes and I know I can't take them back
It feels like the world's on my shoulders about to break my back
So I'm intoxicated doing drugs on a daily basis
Behind the tears of a clown I've been going crazy