Rise To The Top

Why i hesiate
Really do not know
My redemption
From the start
You did not know it
I again started searching
For the one...
You were here
Didn't leave my side
Loving me
Desiring me
Releasing my
Inner child
Into your care
Is it possible  
For love
To blossom again
For the time  
You have left
On earth  
I am yours
To have  
And to hold
Loving you
From start  
Nearly three years now
Has served as one
Of my greatest
Journeys in life
Fraught with the abyss
Of my room
Oceans of tears
Causing me to
Fold myself into
Fetal positions
I never knew existed  
I love you
I want you
Your now frail
Body hurts me
To the core  
Of my being  
Your labored breathing
Often cannot hold
Back bare emotions
I turn, you cannot see
As i choke them down  
Precious, a gem
In my eyes
In my being
You will always  
And, forever  
Be part of me
I bow to you
For your curiosity
Your strength  
In knowledge
Albeit, often  
A thorn in my side
Jealousy overtook
My sensibility  
I wanted to be
Center of your attention
Apple of your eye
It seemed
No matter what
Could never  
Rise to top
Of your list
Mostly last
Talk about
Look at
Others fucking
Touching
Where was I
You unzipped
Yourself jacked off
To nothing
Real only
Photos, videos
Paleo?
You'd never
Make it  
Requires touch
Requires attention
Requires awareness
Girls need  
Attention too
Since break up
Seems you
Finally get it
Sorry it had
To hurt so much
Saw no other way
Was dying inside
Pain too deep
To continue to dwell
Had to escape
From yet one
More prison
And yet...
Here we are
Again, peering
Into each other's eyes
Becoming as one
As two brusied  
People can be
I love you