Bloom

It comes to me this season  
An urge to blow the bloom  
into
This day  
And watch it float on the wind  
 
In this light  
It would be  
An awesome spectacle  
Like an apparition  
Of phantasmic spiral  
Twirling into its seek  
The darkness a great ride for it  
And platform to coast it's colors  
 
Though they fade  
They would surely fade  
And be nothing  
 
I had felt this  
And done it  
And would not do it again  
 
I cannot blow along  
Familiar winds  
 
But new currents have come along  
And hooked the corners of my smile  
urging itself  
To spread wide against the O  
And my uncalm  
Inhaled  
At odds with with the corners of  
What I am  
Used to  
 
I breathe through it  
And the lovely  
Ease and it's scent exists easier  
Inside me  
Daily  
 
When pigments of new petals  
Turn blue  
I dip and streak it  
Into indigo slant  
across page  
Delivering my self free of the shade  
But not the rise of it  
To the sun  
 
not the totalling of it to my whole  
And it would be if ...  
 
But I don't  
I am much too eager  
To let it lie and rest a little  
To meet myself I've cast into  
the role played convincingly  
 
My own shadow  
And see her grow out of it