CONSPIRACY THEORY 4/29

i wake wondering
where to go now
who to blame
or curse
or fight
what sign to carry
who to point at
or point out
because
i only see some  
bumbling politicians
haggling over
whether we should turn
right or left
and out here
things are just
what they are
and it's about survival
 
and i wonder
for one crazy second
if somebody wanted
it that way -- wonder  
if this was all planned,
if that invisible
monster
hiding under every
goddamned bed
in the world
wasn't designed by the masters
to knock us down
and keep us spiraled  
and dizzy
and desperate
for a dollar,
asking whether  
we'll see
tomorrow
and where the next meal
is coming from
 
but then i shake that
thought off  
calling it as crazy  
as chem trails
and mass passivity
via fluoride
and chips planted
via vaccines
and who knocked  
the towers down
though it remains,
like those ideas,
a tiny fire
burning in the back
of my mind