A little darkness

 a little darkness holds me down
Some kind of entity ,,,,?
Burning out inside of me,,,,
Losing all of me I see,,,,
A relentless gentle grip
The Amber glass about to tip.
It loves to numb my bones
Now I’m told to stay alone .
These walls are fucking hard enough.
I don’t wanna give it up .
I would rather fuck it up .
And Eventually throw it up...
But It’s hard to keep my breath without you breathing falsely into me .
Will I ever change for the better?
Will I ever remember me.
            (Fuck it )
          I searched inside of me .
more than I’ll ever need,,,
More than I have in me....
More than I’ll ever care to see.