Reaching out to nothing

I'm tired of this loneliness, its crippling, I'm ever more distant from myself, its daunting

I want the heart felt embrace to wash away this stagnant flesh, please help complete me, the price you pay is time and the product is me, am I worth the exchange anymore?, I'm battered and broken

I want your smell on my clothes, I want your presence, but you don't exist, so I get nothing but crazy, I'm tired of meaningless sex so give me some meaning.