Darkness is king

The darkness has filled my life for so long that I have held onto the agony and ripped my own soul apart for transgressions that were not mine.I have rendered myself worthless in my own eyes as well as others.

I reach out to grasp a life line; I am gasping for the air of life and there is only darkness. when will I be saved. when will I be healed. when will i be safe. the visions and the hyper vigilance eat away at my security and confidence. the shame I feel even now for simulations and sensations that I was not in control of makes my soul suffering and desolate.
 
how can I ever let go? how can I move on? why am i trapped within my own reality of disease and heartache. I don't want the ghosts to haunt me anymore. I am tired of the constant taunting and bashing of my dignity by the darkness.

enjoy, healthy, calm,no fears, unbelievable unattainable..