Addicted To My Addictions

Hello, my name is self-conscious
And I’m an addict,
They say the first step
To conquering my addiction is by
Accepting it.
I do not have a problem
Least I don't think I do
Yet everyone feels obligated to solve them
They say, “you're hurting you”

The decisions I make
My mind tells me not to
Most times I know the outcome
But for benefit of the doubt I still do.
Making unhealthy decisions, no constraint

I allow people into my life
Although I know
some mean no good
I do not guard my heart and my feelings,
The way I know that I should
The need to always have someone around me,
Self-vulnerability.

I'm high off my own conviction
self-esteem started most of my addiction
I stress on my own infliction
friction between my mind and my actions
My dependency is non-fiction.