For something

I'm tired of sleeping  
So I haven't slept in days  
Time to pick up the pieces
And find their right place  
I thought I'd think better  
when I got older  
But I'm sitting here  
With thoughts I’m not over with
 
Are we trying for nothing  
Are we dying for something  
I hope gods real  
I’m scared  
need to believe in something  
where Are we going after here
 
Want dreams to come true  
Afraid to dream when I’m  awake  
Mad I’m doing the same  
I could be different in every way
 
When your dreams aren't met
Being conscious is nothing but a threat  
Social interaction
 there's a rhythm
there's a reason  
Even though  
I don’t wanna see them
their reactions  
their thoughts  
how they have them  
What do they think of me anyway