duplicity

I believed
in love
back in the days
when I was a child
before my first rape
sexual one
i thought
that love exists
and
people are able
to love
before my second rape
spiritual one

now

they all are
shortbread fillings
for
my hungry heart


we walk together
on a dark narrow
road
you look at me
and ask

Do you believe in love?

I glance
at you
hesitate
smile
quick thought
and
answer back

Yeee ...
Of course, I do