Submissions by Natalja (Natalya)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
20th Jul 2020 11:12am
20th Jul 2020 11:12am
Collaborative Poem
I wish it would all
...stop...
every time we go outside
meeting at coffee shop....having spa in the bath
happiness is like a bird
in our hand
laughing at the madness and mixed up words
it has left me shaken
cuddling up on the sofa
realization
I'm not alone
ending it all with a pint of Guinness
that smile lights me up ...
...stop...
every time we go outside
meeting at coffee shop....having spa in the bath
happiness is like a bird
in our hand
laughing at the madness and mixed up words
it has left me shaken
cuddling up on the sofa
realization
I'm not alone
ending it all with a pint of Guinness
that smile lights me up ...
#kindness
#beauty
#honesty
#support
#admiration
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
21st Jun 2020 12:11pm
21st Jun 2020 12:11pm
Anxiety
I was in a rush
it all blurred into
one
long
day
and me going in vicious circles
smirking at me
carefully listening
I was in a bubble
endlessly changing colours
catching the sun
rain drops falling
down
my c h e e k s
itching my numbness
I wanted to get somewhere... do something... meet someone...
I wanted the bubble
to BURST ...
it all blurred into
one
long
day
and me going in vicious circles
smirking at me
carefully listening
I was in a bubble
endlessly changing colours
catching the sun
rain drops falling
down
my c h e e k s
itching my numbness
I wanted to get somewhere... do something... meet someone...
I wanted the bubble
to BURST ...
#anxiety
#dark
#LifeStruggles
#emptiness
#bittersweet
504 reads
3 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
20th Jun 2020 10:34pm
20th Jun 2020 10:34pm
Avoidance
the fear kept me at bay
from others
I never questioned it
it was welcomed
I saw it as a loyal dog
protecting me from enemies
I never looked
into its eyes
that made me fearful
I wondered what if...
it doesn't have eyes?
and I end up
staring
at burning darkness
at the back of my neck
down my spine
unable to scream or run
unable to hide
from the gaze
of the void
within
from others
I never questioned it
it was welcomed
I saw it as a loyal dog
protecting me from enemies
I never looked
into its eyes
that made me fearful
I wondered what if...
it doesn't have eyes?
and I end up
staring
at burning darkness
at the back of my neck
down my spine
unable to scream or run
unable to hide
from the gaze
of the void
within
#regret
#rejection
#shame
#frustration
#denial
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
20th Jun 2020 10:19pm
20th Jun 2020 10:19pm
Despair
and then in the end
it won't matter
who was right or
wrong
in the end
the matter won't matter
staring at blackness
at its inner deeply dug pit
I'll ask:
What's The Point In It
All?
and be left there
on my own
in chaotic wickedness
without answe
r
it won't matter
who was right or
wrong
in the end
the matter won't matter
staring at blackness
at its inner deeply dug pit
I'll ask:
What's The Point In It
All?
and be left there
on my own
in chaotic wickedness
without answe
r
#identity
#MyInspiration
#myself
#SelfReflection
#emptiness
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1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
28th Jul 2019 4:33pm
28th Jul 2019 4:33pm
Meeting my Self Love
I remember you as if
we met
yesterday
it sounds like a
prayer
to fly
and I am in the middle of it
all
so I became good at editing
at crossing out my own:
...words
...thoughts
...memories
I became good at pretending
faking
at neglecting myself
day in and day out
Life of a grown up
Even though it still feels as if
we met only
yesterday
what a mistaken belief
it all clotted down my throat
and prevents me from breathing
it blocks my mind off
and I want to wipe it clean ...
we met
yesterday
it sounds like a
prayer
to fly
and I am in the middle of it
all
so I became good at editing
at crossing out my own:
...words
...thoughts
...memories
I became good at pretending
faking
at neglecting myself
day in and day out
Life of a grown up
Even though it still feels as if
we met only
yesterday
what a mistaken belief
it all clotted down my throat
and prevents me from breathing
it blocks my mind off
and I want to wipe it clean ...
#faith
#spiritual
#magic
#morality
#sacrifice
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
28th Jul 2019 4:29pm
28th Jul 2019 4:29pm
Naivety
it was you or me or both
a dance
a glance
sincere smile
and then walks
and long talks
without any questions
"that's strange I thought at the time
does that mean
no interest
or
all interest I can get?
of course
naivety paints pink
covers everything in candy wrap
shines and attracts
I thought I could get to the bottom of it
I thought there is a mystery
and a prize to be won
once it's solved
and there was just nothingness
staring at the back of my head
and smiling slyly
a dance
a glance
sincere smile
and then walks
and long talks
without any questions
"that's strange I thought at the time
does that mean
no interest
or
all interest I can get?
of course
naivety paints pink
covers everything in candy wrap
shines and attracts
I thought I could get to the bottom of it
I thought there is a mystery
and a prize to be won
once it's solved
and there was just nothingness
staring at the back of my head
and smiling slyly
#forgiveness
#honesty
#misunderstood
#vanity
#support
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Nov 2018 12:44pm
8th Nov 2018 12:44pm
Anxiety
I just want to let it out
itching words
from the bottom of my throat
scream it out
leave it out
playing labyrinth
searching
giving up
losing it
my voice
sound of my soul
vision of us together
it's been years since I've seen you
since I believed in you
since I believed in us
the belief is hidden
underneath my king size bed
juggling words
struggling sounds
and all that hasn't happened yet
fell into rabbit hole
risen above all the
living issues
non-lasting friendnships
broken...
itching words
from the bottom of my throat
scream it out
leave it out
playing labyrinth
searching
giving up
losing it
my voice
sound of my soul
vision of us together
it's been years since I've seen you
since I believed in you
since I believed in us
the belief is hidden
underneath my king size bed
juggling words
struggling sounds
and all that hasn't happened yet
fell into rabbit hole
risen above all the
living issues
non-lasting friendnships
broken...
#sadness
#anxiety
#rejection
#TruthOfLife
#denial
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2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Jun 2011 00:39am
12th Jun 2011 00:39am
take me not
passionate thoughts encipher hidden emotions
take me or break me
without words which bring pain to both halves
without promises which will never be delivered
without dreams whose lies deceive both of my lower parts
take me or break me
squeeze my beating heart in your hands
I want it to see the world through your fingers
I want this world to be a split in your hands
only then it will be real, it will be ours
take me or break me
what are all those...
take me or break me
without words which bring pain to both halves
without promises which will never be delivered
without dreams whose lies deceive both of my lower parts
take me or break me
squeeze my beating heart in your hands
I want it to see the world through your fingers
I want this world to be a split in your hands
only then it will be real, it will be ours
take me or break me
what are all those...
995 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
1st May 2011 10:08pm
1st May 2011 10:08pm
Fortune teller
Taro cards – show me the lights of his heart
speak to me, open the space for my dreams
nurture my world which spins my soul which steals my youth which blows my mind
and I don’t mind
cards – running spiders that do not bite but build the black picture of your eyes
I am getting stuck in this web; I am being liked by the cobweb of intrigue - hypnotize me
and I would not dare to resist the temptation of your presence
I follow the black silhouette of you – crows despise me, cawing and deafening me...
speak to me, open the space for my dreams
nurture my world which spins my soul which steals my youth which blows my mind
and I don’t mind
cards – running spiders that do not bite but build the black picture of your eyes
I am getting stuck in this web; I am being liked by the cobweb of intrigue - hypnotize me
and I would not dare to resist the temptation of your presence
I follow the black silhouette of you – crows despise me, cawing and deafening me...
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DARK POEM
Published
22nd Apr 2011 10:04am
22nd Apr 2011 10:04am
title
touch me with your fingertips
show me your naked vulnerable hands
I will eat them for breakfast
and paint a red-blooded poem of you on my back.
feed my inner dog, stroke my hair
and make me beg for more.
watch the changing forms of my black shadow
wrapping around your shouting soul
crawling inside of your nightmares
pulling your hunger in -deeper and deeper.
sense the swings of my tricky mood
smell my burning soul, steal it allfromme
and make me beg for more.
show me your naked vulnerable hands
I will eat them for breakfast
and paint a red-blooded poem of you on my back.
feed my inner dog, stroke my hair
and make me beg for more.
watch the changing forms of my black shadow
wrapping around your shouting soul
crawling inside of your nightmares
pulling your hunger in -deeper and deeper.
sense the swings of my tricky mood
smell my burning soul, steal it allfromme
and make me beg for more.
1014 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
23rd Aug 2010 10:15pm
23rd Aug 2010 10:15pm
friends forever
was it all a dream
a stupid childish dream which made my bed sheets wet
was it a sweet illusion
of us being friends
one night sharing small bed
same day sharing same smell of naive dreamlike mirrors
it was us sitting opposite each other and smiling
it was so real
naked souls proud of their nakedness
colourful threads interlacing
knitting the patterns of the words
knitting the pattern of one world
could i have ever dreamt that all
your friendship free of jealousy and betrayal
our sincere blue eye and a big cherishing smile...
a stupid childish dream which made my bed sheets wet
was it a sweet illusion
of us being friends
one night sharing small bed
same day sharing same smell of naive dreamlike mirrors
it was us sitting opposite each other and smiling
it was so real
naked souls proud of their nakedness
colourful threads interlacing
knitting the patterns of the words
knitting the pattern of one world
could i have ever dreamt that all
your friendship free of jealousy and betrayal
our sincere blue eye and a big cherishing smile...
1271 reads
7 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
29th Apr 2010 11:02pm
29th Apr 2010 11:02pm
life cycle
me typed in
in my name
and printed off on a library card
plain plastic card is me
me wearing my favourite clothes
accessories, belts
left on the table
watching them from the distance
and realising
they are all – me
me wearing mysterious perfumes
feeling them on others
accepting the smell as a reflection
of me
me picking up the clues of my existence
everywhere I go
from every person I meet
the food I choose
downloaded tunes
numbers on the phone
it’s all either me or reflection of me
it’s all clues of my...
in my name
and printed off on a library card
plain plastic card is me
me wearing my favourite clothes
accessories, belts
left on the table
watching them from the distance
and realising
they are all – me
me wearing mysterious perfumes
feeling them on others
accepting the smell as a reflection
of me
me picking up the clues of my existence
everywhere I go
from every person I meet
the food I choose
downloaded tunes
numbers on the phone
it’s all either me or reflection of me
it’s all clues of my...
1098 reads
6 Comments
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