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I remember the day I signed up
I had long hair, an angry frown
Reading poetry about revenge
About loving your enemy
Others words about love
But I never found the right one
I picked up a pen and decided to try it
I stumbled onto this site in 2012
It feels like a life time ago
How young and angry I was
I was 16 years old, deeply in love
With a boy who didn't know it
A boy whose hands were as violent as mine
My first poem I posted on here
Was about my father and how he wasn't there
How he had never been there
And nearly every other poem following
Was about love, the pain and beauty of it
There were other poems I wrote, too
Angry poems filled with spite and venom
Hopeful poems laced with smiles
Poems about my mental health
Poems about my identity and those roles
The different roles I play in life
My life is here from the first day of college
My life written in rhymes and prose
Long and short, peppered with poems
The poems about a guy that I had
So many intense feelings for promising always
That this is the last poem for him
And here I am at 23 still... Having feelings
Having this chance to make mistakes
By reconnecting with that boy turned man
Who's hands have changed so much