Pain

I feel cast aside.
Lonely, hurt, betrayed.
I feel fragility of mind.
Seeking, wanting, losing.
I am always empty.
Lost, broken, battered.
I am hopeless inside.
Abused, tortured, bruised.

My heart has been ripped open.
My trust was given too freely.
My body was taken by you.
My mind manipulated to believe that there is perfection in this world.
My mind...
My mind is my own worst enemy.
My anxiety is my biggest obstacle.
My depression is my undoing.

Yet I am still here and don't want to be, but I'm too afraid to let it all go. There has to be something more. How can I find it? I am depleted. My energy has run dry.
I am afraid of everything. I'm afraid to trust, to get hurt again. I'm afraid to love because it dies away. I'm afraid of myself and the emotions I feel everyday. My heart is beyond broken.

I should be left alone.
I should be cast aside.
I should be forgotten.