Finished

 
I’ve been through too much to put up with bullshit.
Been around the block enough, too smart to look foolish.

For you, I would have changed my last name.
Instead you showed me mama was right, all men are the same.

You wanna be out here entertaining hoes.
Thought I was your everything, but these streets you chose.

You wanna be treated like a man, but keep the actions of a child.
Its like you had no home training, out here running wild.

Trying to control me, keeping track of my moves.
Monitoring the shit I wear, quick to get in your feelings if you don’t approve.

Busting my lip and blacking my eye.
Hidden truth from my family,
I deny, deny, deny.

Calling me out of my name, trying to create a reaction.
Im so tired of this shit, fatal attraction.

Im fed up the pressure’s too much, I’m not thinking straight.
Me, wait for you to change? Baby its too late.
 
I got real men lining up trying to be in my life and treat me right.
I love you wholehearted, trying to be cold-hearted, those feelings i fight.

Dreams of a family with you I tried to salvage.
Expecting, i get excited. Pissed you off, another miscarriage.

I’ve been through worse so I know I can manage.
To heal may take some time, so I’ll leave my heart bandaged.

Like a thief in the night, I plan to break free.
Can’t wait for a savior, my hero is me.


©️Courtney Hines