hello human

  
today is a beautiful one
because today I'm just Brenda  
the darkness has pulled back  
and I'm riding a gentle wave  
finally in a place I don't hurt  
   
I ache everyday  
feelings flood me  
I write about them  
looking like a lunatic  
   
it's the only way to separate the thoughts bombarding me  
to be able to recognize the differing entities  
I am well hated for channeling a temptress    
please don't mistake her for me  
   
I'm a gentle lady  
mostly afraid of my shadow  
when I am free and my thoughts are my own  
I look over what I've written aghast  
no wonder you pull away from me  
   
I can't control these beings  
they're out there    
they aren't a figment of my imagination  
but don't be afraid a war is being waged  
between the dark stars    
and what I call the natural entities    
   
the dark stars were here first  
in a sense I am related to them  
but I've evolved in humanity  
and don't wish to return home to them  
   
it's my hopes they will learn here  
I have power within me it seems    
to hold them at bay  
   
I'm channeling the darkness    
before it became synonymous with pain  
once there was just deep space  
before the sun, stars, and beings  
there was peace  
   
I go there to meditate    
I think sometimes    
I wish this was all there was  
then I think on all the evolving humans  
and once again I believe in true love  
   
powerful beings have entered  
my time just being Brenda was short
I'm a channel and a little more  
they ask I reveal my secrets  
I tell you I've hidden the keys from my mortal mind  
but things are on course  
   
decisions are being made    
I request you not force my hand  
humanity in progress  
tell me what being human means to you