Letting go/waiting for apathy

sitting here being fucking lonely
feeling the whole world owes me
 
yeah I'm suicidal but I still give a damn
living gods work helping the devil plan
 
I never was one to choose sides
Either wrist is fine gashed open wide
 
hell yeah I wanna die. done trying
Thinking about my momma and kids crying
 
shit never hurt this bad ever before.
Not even that night back in 1994.
 
Apathetic is where I need to fucking be.
But Depression and anxiety always fucking with me
 
space out, feel nothing and let go
saying farewell to this life's shit show