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Language is not a barrier (carpe's therapy sessions)

Five in the morning, come as no surprise    
Still have not fucking slept  
Rest, caught on rare occasions like a fish swimming into the net    
    
On the couch, music on pause for some reason. lost to all but me and the unsmoked joint (not like me at all)    
Inwardly sifting through mental shoes    
some of the traumatics in the wrong    
labelled boxes, whilst others have crossed over, merged together needing their own box.this game is apparently called, piece my life back together,    
all the King's horses and men    
   
Loud thudding on the front  door    
startles me back to the now    
As far as my circle goes, only two would    
come knocking at hours like these    
   
My Latvian mate or me polish bro    
Psychically my gut tells me the latter    
Opening the door a big cheeky burglar face (his words) greets me    
"hello my brother how are you"    
(cabbaged, havnt slept in 8days)    
"well and truly cabbaged then"    
We both laugh, despite the language differences he is funny fuck and a smart dude.    
   
Coffee. "sure why not, you need a line"    
(sure why not) "maybe I leave you this line and you sleep brother, (fuck off, i will      
still be  sitting here where you found me)      
   
He laughs" you crazy ostralee,"    
(need to sort my Mental Shoes mate)    
He nods" your wife?"    
(amongst the countless other issues , nah the other guy, the dickhead)    
" punched you in the face because, you no appreciate his painting the walls "    
... Sigh.....    
(he did worse than that..... he raped me)    
((saying this deflates me, would have fallen, if not for this chair))    
   
Reading his face of mixed emotions    
that mirrored mine i'm guessing    
" fuck I'm sorry my brother "    
   
i can tell part of him wants to reach out.. idk, offer a hug, a handshake    
   
He creates 4lines of speed, we snort one each, share a joint I'd rolled and forgotten about    
Sniffing his last line" I go now, maybe you do this line and fall asleep "    
(Fuck off you know me, still be sitting here where you found me)    
Both laughing we shake hands    
" what's your shoe size, I'll get you some proper ones "    
(alright mate take it easy)    
   
Lock the door and sit back down,    
hunkering down, waiting for  all the events to come crashing back...down. Tired now of this emotional roller coaster
Written by Carpe_Noctem
Published | Edited 30th Jun 2019
Author's Note
This place for me has always been my story, met my wife here, returned here when she fucked off.
So I guess this..... Shall be called carpe's therapy sessions. Cest la vie, que sera sera

MASSIVE Respect to my Polish mate Rob, who with hardly enough English, to converse what would have been required, with that one gesture said it all.
I respect your need for alone time. I imagine next time I see him I will have new shoes.
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