Messed Up.

I feel
Messed up so bad,
In the head.
Like nothin' is right.
In my head.
I feel like i can't think
right, though i can,
I think...
My thoughts are scattered
Which is normal
or weird?
I don't know.
I'm not sure...
People would say,
I'm only saying this.
For attention.
Stupid, I hate Attention.
Ever felt messed up?
Anyway, in the head or just
Anthing, anyway
Easy writin' this,
Why? not much thinkin' involved.
Typin' words. Can't be makin' to much
sense.
Never am. People never get me,
understand me.
I am smart.
I think. Not in what i do
How i act.
but book smarts.
Ain't got no street smarts.
Ha! never got none of those.
Ain't got any common sense for
the life of me.
Got someone else for that.
Well, multiple people.
Nothin' ever make much sense to me.
Issues payin' attention
though i ain't got attention issues.
Just don't understand,well,
The words don't....
I hear what the people say,
I just...
Forget.
It never sticks with me.
That's why i feel so messed up,
In my head and everywhere else.
Got what i wanna say in my head.
Just can't always get it out right,
It never means the same or stands...
Its never the same as in my head.
Maybe...
I should think more...
Its just hard...sometimes.
Or i don't think it over,
And end up gettin' laughed at for what
I said.
Maybe i'm hallucinatin'
Maybe its all
Where it begins.
Maybe its all in my head....