Spiritual Experiences

Heretofore, I wished for a spiritual experience like in the talkies,  
I had them but nary did I notice.  
Not meet, or realistic, I guess,  
Natheless,  
I wanted an epiphany, and/or physical, visual, experience,  
But I have heretofore learned, every painful experience,  
Is forsooth, my spiritual experience.  
The gods, providing obstacles,  
As miracles,  
To teach me what I need to learn.