hellish pain

...on why I like this either, Natalya - tho the message is crystal. I hope for your sake the suffering will soothe itself away.

thanks for reading and the comment. some of my poetry isn't directly connected with me - it's just an effective way of expressing my dark side as well as trying to express how others might feel; when they literally die day to day; struggle with pain  and medication. i hope u understand what i mean

...glad to hear it. Trust me I know all about empathy of this kind.

I am trying to see
the real secret
of myself

I really dig these lines.. and I can relate to them.. I think there's a lot more to this life and I think this place is a lot stranger than it may first appear to people who don't stop and look and consider "wtf is going on" there's a secret world underneath all the zippered suits we wear and the cardboard cut-outs of trees behind us.. and there's a secret reality within us that we can't quite put a finger on or decode.. maybe when we die it will all be unveiled.. good job darlin!!

secret reality within ourselves -
you have just scanned what exactly i meant by mentioning "secret". i'm really pleased that you could sort of feel meaning on the page. impressed :) thank you for reading and taking it the way i do