Untitled 1/30/19

Do you have any idea
What it's like to have to see
Your mom pull a gun
From your dads hands
Before he tried to kill himself?

It's getting harder and harder to sleep
And when I do manage to sleep
It's all nightmares of that night
I'm scared to close my eyes
But I'm even more scared to be awake

Everyone is acting so normal
And I'm just sitting here dying inside
I dont know how to handle this
Why can't anyone hear my cries?
Why wont anyone help?

I'm confused
And exhausted
And sad
And angry
And scared